People often describe me as ‘nice’. It’s an adjective that often puzzles me. But I can see how they perceive me that way. I keep my opinions of people pretty much to myself and a select group of friends who know how I really feel. Maybe it’s left over from high school when I was scared of being unpopular. Maybe I have a misguided ‘need to please’ that society has told me ‘good girls’ have. Maybe I just hate when people say mean stuff.
Today, that changes. Well. A little bit anyway.
Twitter and WoW: when did it become such a clique? Full of mean girls and boys who dictate appropriate reactions and opinions? I used to just like to tweet ‘look at me’ stuff about the game I love and see some funny stuff once in a while. Then, somehow, I became part of the ‘community’ – ugh. I have a YT channel, I’m vocally supportive with contributions to podcasts of friends. And I talk. A lot.
I don’t think any clique I’ve ever seen before has been as insidious, self-righteous, and harmful. If you don’t think Chris Metzen suffers from white privilege, check your vagina at the door, please! If you don’t think Pat Krane is the bees’ knees (I’ve met him, he’s actually pretty cool), gasp! And goodness to gracious if you should insinuate that some people are not quite as open/upfront/generous/giving as they appear! I’ve been terrified of saying anything of the sort – well, not in texts and dm’s. There I say plenty.
There are a lot of podcasters with genuinely amazing production value that try to make a bit of money. And, contrary to some of my best friends, I think that’s just fine. As long as everyone is IN ON THAT. And there are podcasters with amazing entertainment and production value who refuse to take cash. I wish they would sometimes, but it’s never going to happen. There are also podcasts that I have helped out in the past because I know the people who produce the show are hard working adults struggling at times to make ends meet and they don’t make a big song and dance about it; they just keep plugging along as best they can. I help out sometimes because it’s how I choose to spend my money.
But there’s another sort. There are a few people who need ‘help’ to get to BlizzCon – later seen by me LADEN with bags in the BlizzCon store. There are people who need thousands to upgrade their internet provider’s speeds. I’m pretty sure you could upload a podcast at the library – although I’m not sure, and it would take a while. But it’s the ‘I just need a little help getting by’ that is insinuated. Time and time again. And people THROW money at them. Witness our favorite hottest cosplayers reporter, Gamebreaker TV.
Maybe people want to believe in sad stories. Maybe people want to believe others would help THEM if they were in need. But they are blind/deaf to so many things that don’t add up.
AND I think some people who have been so clever with their choice of subject matter. Like me, love me, support me, and I will MENTION you. Oh the dominos effect!! Who doesn’t want to see their name in lights? Well, some people don’t, but you know. And who would want to antagonize speak out against the person who has the power of the LIST. The news. The mention. Now, I know you all know I’ve zero’ed in here – and I’m going to try to be fair. Some of the things Realm Maintenance has put together have been ASTONISHINGLY cool. Yearly maintenance for example. The show was also a huge supporter of All Pets Allowed last year. It feels a little like the gossip columnist who has a little something on everyone and ‘be nice or I’ll leave you out’. Maybe I’m reading it wrong. But I have felt this way for a while. Saying something negative or slightly questioning anything Realm Maintenance does gets the smack down. Like if you deny that racism exists. No, I don’t think I’m overreacting. He has ENORMOUS power over ‘the community’. Lovely bunch.
I often have discussions with a friend you all know and love about this sort of thing. I believe people are adult enough to make their own minds up about what to do with their cash. So, I try not to point out weird ‘for charity’ t-shirt sales. People are grownups. Mostly. My friend feels very strongly the opposite. He has for over a year now been struggling with whether to take a public stand. It’s certainly not a new reaction.
And, Rho’s post on Friday was, for him, the point when he could not continue holding back his opinion. Sorry, buddy, I know you don’t want me to speak for you. But I HATE seeing you vilified. People will have to decide for themselves where the truth lies in this story. Personally, I have a hard time with a lot of the story but I don’t pretend to have all the facts in front of me. I know the support without question troubles me from people who do not know any more than I do. I know it troubles me that this man could be persecuted for something that is not true. But I will let that be between Rho, the courts, and his friends and his heart.
But I WILL NOT let the clique tell me what to think, and what our reaction should be. I will not.